Alone fighting by myself…
…stayed up again today and for the past 3 hrs. I’ve been writing a sad, lonely, worthless, pathetic note about myself to myself, writing about my sad, blue, depressing, miserable self…and I just deleted it all. It’s crazy to admit that I might be suffering from the earliest stage of depression…this is even more shocking to me “sigh”. I guess a degree in psychology is useful after all, just can’t believe the very first patient that I’m treating is MYSELF.
I’ve been going through with this for quite sometime now just didn’t want to admit to it because hello Why me?….Hopefully It’s just a stage that I’m going through right now, or may be it’s my hormone acting up again (just pray that It will get better somehow). Please be anything but depression. It’s better stopped before I’ll reach Manic stage and Depression at the same time because that would mean I’m going to be bipolar and that would sucks for eternity!!!
Thanks Sica =)
Cross off things you’ve done
· Graduated high school.
· Kissed someone.
· Collected something really stupid.
· Smoked a cigarette.
· Got so drunk you passed out.
· Rode every ride at an amusement park.
· Gone to a rock concert.
· Helped someone.
· Gone fishing.
· Watched four movies in one night.
· Gone long periods of time without sleep.
· Lied to someone.
· Snorted cocaine.
· Failed a class.
· Dealt drugs.
· Been in a car accident.
· Been in a tornado.
· Watched someone die.
· Been to a funeral.
· Burned yourself.
· Ran a marathon.
· Cried yourself to sleep.
· Been on a plane.
· Been chated on.
· Written a 10 page letter. (Does research paper count?)
· Gone skiing.
· Been sailing.
· Had a best friend.
· Lost someone you loved.
· Been to jail.
· Skipped school.
· Had detention.
· Got in trouble for something you didn’t do.
· Stolen books from the library.
· Gone to a different country.
· Dropped out of school.
· Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
· Had an online diary. (Does Xanga, Myspace, FB and Tumblr count?)
· Had a yard sale.
· Had a lemonade stand.
· Actually made money at the lemonade stand.
· Been in a school play.
· Been fired from a job.
· Taken a lie detector test.
· Swam with dolphins.
· Voted for someone on a TV show.
· Written poetry.
· Read more than 20 books a year.
· Gone to Europe.
· Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
· Used a coloring book over age 23.
· Had surgery.
· Had stitches.
· Taken a taxi.
· Had more than 5 IM’s going at once.
· Overdosed.
· Had a drug or alcohol problem.
· Been in a fist fight.
· Suffered any form of abuse.
· Gone surfing in California.
· Had a hamster/guinea pig.
· Pet a wild animal.
· Used a credit card.
· Did “spirit day” at school.
· Dyed your hair.
· Got a tattoo.
· Had something pierced.
· Got straight A’s.
· Been on the Honor Roll.
· Made out with someone.
· Played on a sports team.
· Snuck out of the house.
· Swore at a teacher.
· Gone laser tagging.
· Had a boyfriend/girlfriend.
· Been on TV.
· Skinny dipped.
· Performed in front of an audience.
· Been on a train.
· Seen a ghost.
· Gone bungee-jumping.
· Crashed a car.
· Been kissed in the rain.
· Made an 11:11 wish.
· Drank alcohol.
· Forwarded a chain letter.
· Actually sat down and done this list<3
